Sunday, September 23, 2012
Saturday, September 22, 2012
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
ASDFGHJKL I was chosen to act in this short film which will be aired on astro. SO YEAH. xD
Mind you, I'm not showing off. I kept this a secret from everyone.. until I was sure. I just felt like blogging, and et voila~ A blog update about what's happening in my life right now.
It started with a harmless tryout at an audition held by this director who's an ex-Georgian. Just tried out for fun. Didn't give it much thought initially. But then, WHAM! A text from the director, telling me I got chosen. *insert le random, loud squeal*
So today was Day 1 out of the two days of shooting. Let me tell you, it's fun. Tiring but fun. I will never be able to watch anything that has been filmed the same way again. Every scene is like a new adventure and every time you film it, it's not exactly the same. It's different, your posture, your lines, there's a little subtle difference each time that most of the time, only you will notice.
But I can say, that being an actress is a little overrated. It's not easy. Life is not a breeze. And this is coming from a sixteen year old (barely) who has had ONE shooting for a short film. But it was fun. And I'd do it again, any day. That's all for now.
Sunday, April 29, 2012
|Laughing with you is where I want to be right now.|
Friday, April 27, 2012
Tuesday, April 24, 2012
Wednesday, March 21, 2012
I don't care if you are a guy or a woman or Michael Jackson.
Just read this, it will make a difference.
If only everyone could see this and understand it.
When she stares at your mouth
When she pushes you or hits you like a dummy cause she
thinks shes stronger than you
Grab her and don't let go
When she starts cursing at you trying to act all tough
Kiss her and tell her you love her
When she's quiet
Ask her whats wrong
When she ignores you
Give her your attention
When she pulls away
Pull her back
When you see her at her worst
Tell her she's beautiful
When you see her start crying
Just hold her and don't say a word
When you see her walking
Sneak up and hug her waist from behind
When she's scared
When she steals your favorite hoodie
Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night
When she teases you
Tease her back and make her laugh
When she doesn't answer for a long time
reassure her that everything is okay
When she looks at you with doubt
Back yourself up
When she says that she loves you
she really does more than you can understand
When she grabs at your hands
Hold her's and play with her fingers
When she bumps into you;
bump into her back and make her laugh
When she tells you a secret
keep it safe and untold
When she looks at you in your eyes
dont look away until she does
When she says it's over
she still wants you to be hers
When she reposts this bulletin
she wants you to read it
- Stay on the phone with her even if she's not saying anything
- When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go
- When she says she's ok don't believe it, talk with her because 10 yrs later she'll remember you
- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her
-Treat her like she's all that matters to you
- Stay up all night with her when she's sick
- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think it's stupid
- Give her the world.
- Let her wear your clothes
-When she's bored and sad, hang out with her-Let her know she's important.
- Kiss her in the pouring rain
- When she runs up to you crying, the first thing you say is:
In Hindi, to call a loved one by an endearing nickname is to call them Jaantush or Jaan for short. According to my friends, this means love, life, sweetheart and practically everything endearing.
I feel... Like a part of me has been torn out of my body. Forced out, screaming and bloody. Yes, it's that gory. You see, when a part of you is torn out.. You bleed, it hurts, it takes time to heal and the best part is... You feel lighter but.. you feel empty. Hollow. Like you've been burrowed through.
You feel like crap. And yes, thats how i feel right now. That's exactly how.
Thursday, January 26, 2012
Thursday, January 19, 2012
Friday, December 30, 2011
- I was placed into a great class. I'm not talking about academically. Academic wise, hell yes, we're awesome, 3Zamrud. I'm talking about class spirit, and cooperation and just the fact that our class is made up of wonderful, amazing people. I have never had such a lovely class. And for that, I thank all of you. We never had any theft problems. I could leave anything of any value on my table and see it there when I return. God bless you people. I hope to have that chance to be in your presence again, but no such luck in Form 4 and Form 5.
- I had amazing, captivating teachers. To my teachers, there are no ways in which i can repay you. Pn Sazzlina, Pn Asmimi, Ms Teh, Ms Guna, Ms Tang, Pn Kamalambal, Pn Rita, Pn Audrey, Mr Adham, Ust Sahilah and other teachers who have had the patience of putting up with me this year, thank you so very much. No words can convey my gratefulness.
- I had an amazing experience as a debater this year despite it being Exam Year. Ms Kamala Veni, thank you for giving that opportunity to debate with the Dalat people. I will try to do better.
- To my kakak, for being the best kakak anyone can be blessed with. You have been an amazing guidance, role model and companion. You have looked out for me since I was a Form 1 girl, until I am now. You're an amazing person and you will always be my kakak to me.
- To Someone (who wishes to remain as Someone), I thank you for always being around, always giving in when we fight, always letting me win, always putting up with my mood swings. You have been the very best friend a girl can wish for. For 2012, why dont we try not to fight? Impossible, i know. *wink wink* I can always count on you, I know. Thanks.
- To the little minority i can call my true friends, who have remain my friends through thick and thin and not give in to the status quo, you guys are people I truly love and adore. I hope I can be as good to you as you are to me. I hope this will always go on. Thank you very much.
- To my parents, who have always accepted the fact they have unleashed a temperamental, psychotic and hard to understand person to the world, I can never repay you for everything you've done. Every sacrifice, tears, financial sacrifice, (not to mention all the clothes and shoes I have been taking away from my mom), I have nothing to say but I Love You. I might not seem to feel that way, but really, I do. Always remember, I'm a big headed teenager with gallons of hormones pumping in my veins.
Thursday, November 3, 2011
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
I did the Maths exam, like FINALLY. But it doesn't change the fact that I suck at Algebra, though I think I'm better than you. :P The rumor is that some people only got 20/60 for the first paper... and I'm seriously scared. But at least I answered almost everything. Gosh, if you were here, we'd talk all day about how terrible Maths is.
And today, I got my new specs. I so wish you were around to see it, I mean... it's so cool... I'll take a pic so you can see it...someday. XD too lazy... you know me. :D
And dayyum, I'm trying to tell myself 3 months is not long but even MY Maths isn't THAT terrible. XP
Miss you, silly.
I wonder what you will be doing when you read this. -smiles-
Monday, February 7, 2011
Thursday, January 6, 2011
Wth? Since when I'm like, explaining bout grammar? >.<
Anyways, What would you do if someone you knew for years suddenly had a drastic personality makeover?
And somehow, you couldnt catch up with all the changes? What would you do? Do tell me, I have no idea of what to be done with this. I musnt dwell in the past, MARCH AHEAD, ALIA!!! -smiles-
-sigh- Let's not dwell on such pessimistic thoughts about things that wont benefit us.
I've been so happy this past few days. :D :D :D
PMR year now, must focus. But all the teachers are like so funny and very friendly...
SO MUCH HOMEWORK!!!! :O
Ok, got to go, must sleep early in order not to get sick.
I miss blogging here sum how eventhough my Tumblr is kinda nicer. -bites lips-
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
Monday, November 1, 2010
Friday, October 22, 2010
Yea. Havent done much, I've been kinda busy. But yeah, I miss Blogger. The freedom to just keep writing and those long post wont bug anyone's dashboard. And anyways, I'm kinda the person who has a lot pent up, always eager to share my fair share of stories. Sounds like that can go both ways.
Let me see. My life was, is, and will remain messy but it's okay. That's what life's about I guess.
Ok. So I went to the Battle of the Bands/Dance Competition auditions. It was great... wait more than great... It Was A-M-A-Z-I-N-G! -screams- Oh wait, I can barely scream anymore... too much screaming yesterday.
There was awesome dance moves, great, loud, headache-begging music. So what if I was sick during the auditions? I'm glad I went(and thanks Hee, for making me go, I'll remember it for as long as I can remember things). Worth the time, pain,
Met an old friend. Observed some amusing things. Funny. Amusing. Hilarious. Ok, done. XD
I would like to say, wait, , make that yell, CONGRATS! to the finalists. Hope you guys show us more awesome moves and strokes of genius.
I really hope I can go to the Finals. I wish I have transport to go but right now, things don't look so good. A girl can only wish.
You know you love me.
Friday, September 17, 2010
And all of my readers, you mean as much to me as sang in that song.
This is another song, also very nice. It's called To Love You More by Celine Dion:
Oh yes, guys. I know, I like the violinist too. He's so awesome to me. :)
Hope you guys like my choice of songs this time. <3
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
Monday, September 6, 2010
Sunday, September 5, 2010
Sunday, August 29, 2010
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
The best part was that we had to take a picture of all of us forming the words 125 SGGS
Hmm.... and my friends were endlessly talking... but I couldnt understand a word of it of course...
Them talking in their mother tongue... >___>
The formation thing was tiring and is a HUGE
The sun was not too bad... though a little uncomfortable and moving forward and backward to get the best formation shape was kinda... tiring...
Hmm, sadly... I dont think I'll be online for a few days... Esp on the public holiday Nuzul al-Quran.
I realized that I havent been blogging bout the fasting month... the thing is... fasting is not hard...
Not eating during the day is not that hard but not swearing is hard I tell you...
Esp when you have just a nasty day and the Ffff is just rolling on the tip of your tongue... LOL
In case I didnt come online after this... I just wanna say a BIG happy birthday to -clears throat- someone... Happy Bday, and dont worry If i dont come online... I'll still give you ONE of your bday present... I insist. XD Just dont... get angry kay? C:
PS: Bryan is
Saturday, August 21, 2010
I forgot to pack extra clothes when we went home to my other house.
Then we wanted to go to the mall, and I didnt have anything nice to wear... more like anything that wont make me look like a social pariah. So anyways...
I put on these bermuda pants (I LOVE em ;) ) and this over sized shirt. Believe me, no one looks stupider than me. Not even Cinderella would look flattering in them. ZZZZZ
And we went to a restaurant, to break fast(not breakfast... its to break the fasting period) =.= ... and the waiter didnt really even want to look at us, he was judging us just coz I wore clothes like tht...
Omigod! IKR? Then, as we were eating, I pranked the waiter... XD Funneyh!
- DONT JUDGE MEH!
- dont EVER wear clothes like I mentioned. =.=
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
So yea... Bryan... YOU'RE AWESOME. Now STOP BUGGING ME!
LOL. Im just kidding, Bryan.
Ok, done with that... Anyways, I was hoping that two certain people would read what I'm about to blog.
"Isn't what I've done for you enough? Enough for you to acknowledge the fact that I'm
- A human being with a heart
- Not invisible and I'm also solid.
- Not a dumb blonde
Please. This is all I ask for. And all that I can ask for.
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Hmm, we went shopping. It was sooo freezin cold.
I saw cans and cans on Dr Pepper. Then I realized (take note Mr Cocky and Smug! No offense with the name, bro! And yes, your super uber awesome! XD) I never tasted Dr Pepper before. Hmmm... Or seen the cans before. I wonder how they taste like...
We shopped till we drop and to keep the story short, we also stuffed our tummies with goodies. My mum wanted to eat cake so we went to Secret Recipe and I was blinded by the choice of cakes there. I love cakes. So we ordered.
Gastronomical interest note here: Order the Strawberry Marsh mellow Cheese Cake. Heavenly divine piece of cake it is. Owh so delectable. Beats and trumps my mom's cake of choice. Oh yeh!
As we were dining, my dad told me he saw the world tallest guy. Imagine... in Queensbay Mall! No kid rite?
He's damn tall man... Poor guy, he must have stoop a lot of times in low ceiling places.
Gtg. Mom's nagging. Oh yea, to my Muslim cousins, Happy Ramadhan. <3
Friday, August 6, 2010
Sunday, July 25, 2010
And somehow Twitter got more interesting after Fly.fm played the song request I asked for on Twitter. Yeehaw!
Ok... back to business. This blog... well u cn say tht it has been the place i vent off my anger, pent up frustration and also the place I post all those
Nah... I loved what I wrote. Eventho I messed up... -smiles-
So I dont think I wanna erase most of my posts just because it didnt seem rite tht they're still there. Those are not mockery, those are past memories. I'd be willing to go thru pain if I can relive those memories... Oh well, there's nothing I could do but wait for you.
I'd wait and I wait even though it sounds pathetic.
Cheer up, ma readers
I love you all! <3
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
I'd do almost anything to see you smile again... But you're swatting me away.
Take it easy. But dont take anything. Anything. And that includes
I'm human too. I have feelings like you do. I hurt just like you. And I take time to heal all the same. So why are you treating me like a punch bag you can let ALL of your anger, your pent up emotions on me?
Just... be wary... U'll hurt a lot of people who loves you... If you go on like this.
Monday, June 28, 2010
I was hurt when i read it... but needless to say, I dont want to blame you for it. Even when you do have a fair share of the blame, in my opinion.
But im blogging not to blabber about hurt, for hurt I shall face
I just need to clarify something. My
Like when I asked the Professor (today) that question... It wasnt supposed to have anything to do with you.
I asked because I needed to know.
So that's all. Yeah. Take care, my dear readers.
Sunday, June 27, 2010
And how you not just make it look like a cheap piece of instrument,
But how you transform it,
Into a real beauty.
All this time I held my guitar,
I nvr held it the way you did.
To say I've been able to manipulate the instrument the way you did... is a sin.
Girl, dont be nervous,
Dont be worried,
You are always prepared, always cool...
Tomorrow may be a good thing,
Or a bad one,
It all depends on how you handle it,
And believe me,
You'd be fine...
I know you'd be. If anything goes wrong, you'd know where to find me...
Next to you, ready to catch you, if you slip or fall...
Sunday, June 20, 2010
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
I'm posting because I'm pissed. But to be honest, it's not good to blog when you're pissed. U post stoooooooopppiiiid stuf.... then people read. Lol. Like i care. But I care bcause it will not do good. Much. Lol.
I had an awesome morning. I was woken up on time by a lovely bird chirping. Means I received a text. Makes me happy to wake up in such a way.
Please. Feel free to wake me up at any hour of the day. For you, it's fine. For anyone else, they're gonna have their head bitten off. Simple.
I like this micro blogging thingy but Twitter's words limit kill's my creative juices. So. Yeah. :)
It's holidays. I'm bored. So I'll keep posting and spamming my own blog
Monday, May 3, 2010
Friday, January 15, 2010
Thank you for trying your hardest in things that seemed petty like answering my questions
Thank you for existing. Your existence made the world a much more colorful place.
Thank you for being the first to actually acknowledge the fact that I'm not invisible nor am I invincible.
Thank you for pestering me to tell you things I dont want to coz that's how I loosen up my tension
Most of all, thank you to God for creating you and meeting me with you!
I love you and you know it!
Even though it seems like you're avoiding me, I know the reasons and I understand! :) ;) :D
Thursday, December 31, 2009
For so long,
I've been patient,
I'm still patient but,
I'm wondering when you will appear in front of my eyes,
I want to see you,
I want to talk to you,
I want to see your smile once again,
Like the shining sun,
Your smile makes me happier than anything can,
That's why I'm willing,
To wait for you,
And here I shall be,
Waiting for you... :)
To the owner of the picture, I hope you dont mind me using you pic! It's very nice....
Friday, December 25, 2009
Through loving, we are loved.
I looked into those admiring dark eyes. The colour of the darkest pearl never failed to mesmerise and enchant me. They made me wonder whether the rest of the universe could ever be more beautiful than her eyes each time I look into them.
I reached for a strand of her beautiful black hair which had came out of her messy ponytail. Tucking her hair behind her ears made me feel very happy for some unknown reason. It made me very content and excited.
I sighed. Why must she be everything that is right for me and yet, she’s all wrong for me at the same time? Is loving her a test? How do I pass this test? By loving her with more love than the world could ever hold or loving her in secret for the fear of hurting her with my feelings?
She smiled at me. The setting sun shines its last rays in the park we were in. Is it the same for me? Should I stop loving her like the setting sun and let some guy make her happy? I know that, like the setting sun, I’ll love her again after that. Just like a rising sun again. I sighed.
Looking into her beautiful heart shape face, I know I’ve found everything there is to be found in my life. Her face holds more beauty than anything the world can offer me. I am in love with her and nothing else matters but that truth.
I don’t know if she feels the same way for me. I can not make her love me. Love is free will. She’s free to love anyone. I’m not going to make her choose me just because she doesn’t want me hurt.
I don’t want her to feel like she’s being a hypocrite by lying to me. I’d rather be in pain than letting her be in pain. Any pain inflicted upon her will kill me. My hand which she held in hers twitched. My hand wanted to take hers and press them to the place where my heart beats.
I want to let her hands rest there and tell her that my heart is all her for the taking. But I can’t. I can never do that because that will be selfish. We have been sitting on this bench, not moving for almost an hour.
The sun has set and it’s twilight. I knew instinctively, that this is the time to tell her. I looked into her eyes again, and I was tongue-tied. How can I ever tell her I love her when each time I look into her eyes, I’m speechless at the beauty of them?
I shook my head and whispered into her ears for fear of being tongue-tied should I look into her eyes. I whispered so softly that I could barely hear it, “I love you”. She shook her head and giggled.
I felt a pang in my chest. She’s laughing at me. She looked into my tortured expression and said, “I’m not laughing at you, I’m laughing because it took you the whole day just to whisper those three words”.
They both of us laughed harmoniously together. She tugged my chin asking me to look into her eyes again. I stopped laughing and I looked into her eyes, trying to make my thoughts coherent. “I love you too but it’s not enough to make us more than friends”, she whispered.
I waited for the pain that ought to be searing through me but no pain came. I realised that her words made me feel happy. Not as jubilant as I would have been should she told me she loved me as much as I love her, but content enough not to feel the pain.
I know she will never love me enough to change the fact that we will only remain as friends but I think that’s enough for me. Being friends with her will be enough for me for the rest of eternity. I know that.