Sunday, July 25, 2010

Update!

I'm so sorry for neglecting my blog. I've been trying to... reconcile with my inner self, u cn say... XP
And somehow Twitter got more interesting after Fly.fm played the song request I asked for on Twitter. Yeehaw!
Ok... back to business. This blog... well u cn say tht it has been the place i vent off my anger, pent up frustration and also the place I post all those sickening(i bet you guys are puking rite now JK) lovey dovey stuff.

Nah... I loved what I wrote. Eventho I messed up... -smiles-

So I dont think I wanna erase most of my posts just because it didnt seem rite tht they're still there. Those are not mockery, those are past memories. I'd be willing to go thru pain if I can relive those memories... Oh well, there's nothing I could do but wait for you.

I'd wait and I wait even though it sounds pathetic.

-Smiles-

Alia

Cheer up, ma readers(do I even have any?) 


I love you all! <3

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Leave and let go? Yea rite!

I'm not going to pretend I know how you feel. For I don't think I do. But believe me, I'm trying. Trying so very hard to please you. Yet, my attempts are fruitless and not appreciated.

I'd do almost anything to see you smile again... But you're swatting me away.

Take it easy. But dont take anything. Anything. And that includes me. For granted.

I'm human too. I have feelings like you do. I hurt just like you. And I take time to heal all the same. So why are you treating me like a punch bag you can let ALL of your anger, your pent up emotions on me?

Just... be wary... U'll hurt a lot of people who loves you... If you go on like this.

Alia

Monday, June 28, 2010

Hurt

Seriously, wat else does that ****h have to do to get to me? Like post something to hurt me in the wee hours just because i'd definitely see it? Yo loser, that's lame!

I was hurt when i read it... but needless to say, I dont want to blame you for it. Even when you do have a fair share of the blame, in my opinion.

But im blogging not to blabber about hurt, for hurt I shall face alone. 


I just need to clarify something. My entire universe and being revolves around you, but that doesnt mean everything is about you! (-_-!!)

Like when I asked the Professor (today) that question... It wasnt supposed to have anything to do with you.
I asked because I needed to know.

So that's all. Yeah. Take care, my dear readers.

Love you,
Alia

Sunday, June 27, 2010

The Way

I love the way you hold my guitar,
And how you not just make it look like a cheap piece of instrument,
But how you transform it,
Into a real beauty.

All this time I held my guitar,
I nvr held it the way you did.
To say I've been able to manipulate the instrument the way you did... is a sin.

Girl, dont be nervous,
Dont be worried,
Unlike me,
You are always prepared, always cool...

Tomorrow may be a good thing,
Or a bad one,
It all depends on how you handle it,
And believe me,

You'd be fine...

I know you'd be. If anything goes wrong, you'd know where to find me...
Next to you, ready to catch you, if you slip or fall...

Alia

Sunday, June 20, 2010

Goodbyes- A poem- For you, for us, for what we are now...


Time passes by,
With no words of reply,

I guess we've said our goodbyes,
Without remembering our whys,

Time has washed away the blues,
Leaving us with no clues,

Flying we are pointlessly,
As we ponder aimlessly,

Music playing wondrously,
Not with us smiling with glee,

Gone are the times we smile,
When we see each other no more than a mile,

Standing we are here,
Not to shed a tear,

Losing each other we are aware of,
Yet at each other we scoff,

Silently we regret and wish,
To stop the hatred we've unleashed,

But agony leaves us no cure,
For the friendship is no more pure,

We are now two different entities,
Too much of a quantity,

We want all this to end,
But on the other we depend,

This will get us nowhere,
That's why we should have been aware,

Of the potent of our anger,
Now all that's left to do is linger,

To hope the other's ego is not larger,
To apologize without the face of a gravedigger,

We ask ourselves for a reason,
Why we made ego the poison,

To each other we have offend,
Let us hope this isn't the end.

Thursday, June 10, 2010

This might help me express what I cant put as words. Please. Thanks. I'm sorry. I screwed up. But I want to make it how it used to be. Or maybe, make it better. :)


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VascyLfpNrI&feature=related (Video for it) 


Sorry-Buckcherry.
Oh I had a lot to say, was thinking on my time away
I missed you and things weren't the same
'Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry, it makes me want to die

I'm sorry, I'm bad, I'm sorry, I'm blue
I'm sorry about all things I said to you
And I know, I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby, the way you make my world go round
And I just wanted to say, I'm sorry

This time I think, I'm to blame
It's harder to get through the days
You get older and blame turns to shame
'Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry, it makes me want to die

I'm sorry, I'm bad, I'm sorry, I'm blue
I'm sorry about all things I said to you
And I know, I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby, the way you make my world go round
And I just wanted to say, I'm sorry

Every single day, I think about how we came all this way
The sleepless nights and the tears you cried
It's never too late to make it right
Oh yeah, sorry

I'm sorry, I'm bad, I'm sorry, I'm blue
I'm sorry about all things I said to you
And I know, I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby, the way you make my world go round
And I just wanted to say, I'm sorry

I'm sorry, baby
I'm sorry, baby
I'm sorry

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

How much I miss blogging.

Yes. I havent blogged for some time. If you dont count yesterday's post. Hehe. Yesterday's post raised some good questions. :) That's... fine. I guess. People. If you baca (read) my blog (rarely anyone does. XD) then you boleh la (can) comment as you like. But if you dont like what I post, then dont read. Simple. Kay?

I'm posting because I'm pissed. But to be honest, it's not good to blog when you're pissed. U post stoooooooopppiiiid stuf.... then people read. Lol. Like i care. But I care bcause it will not do good. Much. Lol.

I had an awesome morning. I was woken up on time by a lovely bird chirping. Means I received a text. Makes me happy to wake up in such a way.

Please. Feel free to wake me up at any hour of the day. For you, it's fine. For anyone else, they're gonna have their head bitten off. Simple.

I like this micro blogging thingy but Twitter's words limit kill's my creative juices. So. Yeah. :)

It's holidays. I'm bored. So I'll keep posting and spamming my own blog (lame, I noe) with the minutest details. Love you all.

Hearts,
Aria

Smile

Smile
I was just lying on my bed, trying to figure out the song I’d play next ... The song playing in my ancient music player was ‘She Will Be Loved’ by Maroon 5. The song came to the part where ‘...with a broken smile...’ I stood up, just realizing how stupid I am.
                It hit me suddenly that you often smile a ‘broken’ smile. Your smile is sweet but you smile bitterly.  It’s not hard to read distress and hurt on your face but there are times I wish I needn’t figure out the reason for your frowns.
                Your smile. That’s the secret to brightening my day. I recall telling you that ‘Your smile determines the brightness of the sky I walk beneath’. When I finished saying that sheepishly, you laughed at me.
                As my mind plays a slideshow on the various looks of yours I have seen in the whole time I’ve known you, I realized that you smile differently for different reasons. You smile crooked when you’re pleased with something. You smile sheepishly when you’re embarrassed. You smile sweetly when you’re in love.
                But what hurts me the most is the way you smile when you’re keeping the pain to yourself. You’d smile bitterly. You’d have this wary, weary and uninterested expression when you’re thinking of something else but you’re trying your best to be polite and listen to the conversation.
                The truth is you are a special person in my life. And I try my hardest to notice everything about you. There are times I just feel like shouting ‘what are you thinking of?’ when I see you drifting away in your own world far away.
                I love you very much. I love everything about you, not only your smile. But when you smile, you make me smile. J -smiles-

Yours,
Alia
PS: Shall listen to ‘Smile-Uncle Kraker’ soon.
                

Monday, May 3, 2010

Tired...Oh so Tired!

I'm so tired. I'm like so sleep deprived by now that I think I left myself in my house with my body left on the sofa with the eyes bloodshot. Jeez, I'm kidding. 
I'm tired of course. I slept with my eyes open in tuition yesterday... Yes, sleeping wif ur eyes open is POSSIBLE!
Lol, sleep is like a luxury. I can't get my hands on that luxury. GTG... 

Love,
Alia

Friday, January 15, 2010

Thank You!

Thank you! You were always there for me when I needed you and despite what I did to you.
Thank you for trying your hardest in things that seemed petty like answering my questions
Thank you for existing. Your existence made the world a much more colorful place.
Thank you for being the first to actually acknowledge the fact that I'm not invisible nor am I invincible.
Thank you for pestering me to tell you things I dont want to coz that's how I loosen up my tension
Most of all, thank you to God for creating you and meeting me with you!
I love you and you know it!

Even though it seems like you're avoiding me, I know the reasons and I understand! :) ;) :D

Thursday, December 31, 2009

Happy New Year

I know I dont use my blog to 'blog', Ok.... I use it to 'blog' but not about my life. I blog bout stories and poems....  :) Anyway, I just wanna wish everyone a happy new year. Every year, we dont grow older, we grow more knowledgeable and experienced. I hope 2010 will be an awesome year for me and you guys. Have fun and never let golden (or silver or bronze!) opportunities pass. Grab them and make a run for the line so no one can take them away from their righful owner, yes you!

Waiting for you

I have been waiting for you,
For so long,
I've been patient,
I'm still patient but,
I'm wondering when you will appear in front of my eyes,
Rather magically,
I want to see you,
I want to talk to you,
I want to see your smile once again,
Like the shining sun,
Your smile makes me happier than anything can,
That's why I'm willing,
To wait for you,
And here I shall be,
Waiting for you...  :)


To the owner of the picture, I hope you dont mind me using you pic! It's very nice....

Friday, December 25, 2009

New Story - Through loving, we are loved.

Through loving, we are loved.

I looked into those admiring dark eyes. The colour of the darkest pearl never failed to mesmerise and enchant me. They made me wonder whether the rest of the universe could ever be more beautiful than her eyes each time I look into them.

I reached for a strand of her beautiful black hair which had came out of her messy ponytail. Tucking her hair behind her ears made me feel very happy for some unknown reason. It made me very content and excited.

I sighed. Why must she be everything that is right for me and yet, she’s all wrong for me at the same time? Is loving her a test? How do I pass this test? By loving her with more love than the world could ever hold or loving her in secret for the fear of hurting her with my feelings?

She smiled at me. The setting sun shines its last rays in the park we were in. Is it the same for me? Should I stop loving her like the setting sun and let some guy make her happy? I know that, like the setting sun, I’ll love her again after that. Just like a rising sun again. I sighed.

Looking into her beautiful heart shape face, I know I’ve found everything there is to be found in my life. Her face holds more beauty than anything the world can offer me. I am in love with her and nothing else matters but that truth.

I don’t know if she feels the same way for me. I can not make her love me. Love is free will. She’s free to love anyone. I’m not going to make her choose me just because she doesn’t want me hurt.

I don’t want her to feel like she’s being a hypocrite by lying to me. I’d rather be in pain than letting her be in pain. Any pain inflicted upon her will kill me. My hand which she held in hers twitched. My hand wanted to take hers and press them to the place where my heart beats.

I want to let her hands rest there and tell her that my heart is all her for the taking. But I can’t. I can never do that because that will be selfish. We have been sitting on this bench, not moving for almost an hour.

The sun has set and it’s twilight. I knew instinctively, that this is the time to tell her. I looked into her eyes again, and I was tongue-tied. How can I ever tell her I love her when each time I look into her eyes, I’m speechless at the beauty of them?

I shook my head and whispered into her ears for fear of being tongue-tied should I look into her eyes. I whispered so softly that I could barely hear it, “I love you”. She shook her head and giggled.

I felt a pang in my chest. She’s laughing at me. She looked into my tortured expression and said, “I’m not laughing at you, I’m laughing because it took you the whole day just to whisper those three words”.

They both of us laughed harmoniously together. She tugged my chin asking me to look into her eyes again. I stopped laughing and I looked into her eyes, trying to make my thoughts coherent. “I love you too but it’s not enough to make us more than friends”, she whispered.

I waited for the pain that ought to be searing through me but no pain came. I realised that her words made me feel happy. Not as jubilant as I would have been should she told me she loved me as much as I love her, but content enough not to feel the pain.

I know she will never love me enough to change the fact that we will only remain as friends but I think that’s enough for me. Being friends with her will be enough for me for the rest of eternity. I know that.

Friday, December 18, 2009

The Wait- a new story....

And the years flew like butterflies in an open meadow. Patricia sat there on her antique rocking chair, still waiting and hoping. Her rocking chair faced the front of the lawn. She ordered the rocking chair to be placed there with hopes that she would be able to see him in his full uniform when he comes back from the war.

The word ‘war’ made her wept dried tears that she wept years ago. She couldn’t afford to weep another tear for the war that had taken David from her in what seemed like eons ago. She remembered with perfect recall how handsome David looked in his uniform. He was so eager to fight for his country.

She wasn’t so eager. She knew how dangerous war zones can be. She wished to bottom of her heart that David didn’t have to leave her and she would still see him despite the raging war. Who cares about some stupid war? No matter what she said or how she pleaded, he still had to go.

She prayed that her endless love- which could bring the world to its knees- was enough to keep Dave safe and sound. Every second of the day, her heavy heart wondered where he was and how is he holding. And she spent every second of the day praying that love was enough to keep him safe.

She sat there on the rocking chair, motionless and oblivious to the world. Once in a while, she would whip her head to look at the antique but charming grand piano behind her. She could her faint music from it that came from her memories of Dave playing. The heavenly music never left.

Everyday, the music would start swimming in the room as soon as she sat on her rocking chair. She would turn to find that the room was empty with nothing but her, the rocking chair and the grand piano. She knew that Dave was playing, far away, to assure her that everything was fine and he was well.

She would reminisce how his huge fingers would move smoothly to create a music that was out of this world. The music she heard when he was playing can only be heard in the Heaven. He would play and at the end of each song he would reach out for her hand and kiss her.

His kisses were sweet, sweeter than honey. Then he would caress her hair and murmur words to tell her how much he loved her. She sighed. The memories never failed to flood back like a gushing stream every time she sees a thing that had something to do with Dave. What wouldn’t she give to have his hands around her now?

She looked to find that the clouds are orange now. How fast time flies when she thought of him. She reminded of their first kiss. They kissed in a meadow and the sun was setting and the bird-who were returning home- chirped as tough they loved to see them together.

Something made her rubbed her eyes hard with the back of her hands and shook her head. Perhaps the medications that her physician gave had a side effect of hallucination. She couldn’t believe what she was seeing. She was seeing Dave returning for the war. He was wearing the very same uniformed he left with.

He was carrying nothing but a charming smile that left her breathless for the first time in so many years and a beautiful yellow rose. Yellow roses meant love everlasting. He had some weird light that trailed behind him. His face was glowing and radiant. He walked slowly and Patricia wanted to run but something pulled her back.

He stood there in front of her and asked in his deep voice, “Are you willing to give everything up just to be with me, Patty”. She looked into his violent blue eyes and found all the answers to her questions. “Anything and everything”, she whispered. “Then come with me, my love”, he tugged her.

The weight that pulled her down just now felt effortless. There was nothing holding her now with the exception of Dave’s warm hand. She took a step forward and felt different. She felt as though she shouldn’t be walking, she should be flying. “Is anything wrong, love?” Dave asked with his eyebrows up.

“Nothing when I’m with my soul mate and the person who owns my heart and soul” she answered. He smiled and left her breathless again. With the smile, she let go of all her fears and doubts. In fact, she let go of everything but him. Then she found herself and walked with Dave to a place not even I know of.

As she walked towards the skies, she looked back to find her aged and wrinkled body lifeless on the rocking chair she spent so long on. Her body was old and wrinkled but her soul was young and the both of them looked exactly how they looked like in their twenties. It was worth the wait, she told herself as she walked hand in hand with Dave.

The young maid who was assigned to take care of the aged Mrs. Young went to find the old lady for her dinner. She found her mistress sitting on the rocking chair as usual. The only different thing was that the chair wasn’t rocking in its usual rhythm. She touched Patricia’s hand and found it was warmer than usual.

She shook the old lady gently, hoping to wake her from her nap. But then she found out that Patricia will never wake up again. She wanted to weep her heart out for the kind old lady had left the world but something told her that Patricia was with Dave and she is very contend to be there with her soul mate.

She called the butler and together they arranged for a cremation as they were ordered by the late Mrs. Patricia Young, wife of Lieutenant Young who died in war. Then they sent her urn to the skies with a small firework. When the firework exploded, her ashes were scattered in the skies with the stars. Somehow, the stars were brighter that night than they have ever seen.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Don't laugh....It's a.........Shaving Manual....A joke....

A SHAVING MANUAL FOR DUMMIES

Several common questions asked and answers to them.

Q: Why do I need to read this manual?
A: This manual was written to help YOU to shave.

Q: Why do I need it to learn to shave? I can do it myself.
A: Sure you can do it yourself but don’t you wanna do it better?

Q: Why do you think you as the author are better at shaving when you aren’t even a boy?
A: I don’t think I am better at shaving. I just wanna help you do it so you don’t harm yourself and others (Boys who don’t know how to shave can be deadly dangerous to themselves and the community!)

Q: Why do I even need to shave?
A: You need to shave in order to control the presence of fine hairs above the upper lip and on your chin called the mustache and the beard (those hairs AREN’T called whiskers!)

Q: So what if I have a mustache and a beard?
A: You might get into trouble with the rules at your school and if you let the facial hairs grow too long, people might mistake you for Ernest Hemingway!







Note: The author is not responsible for any injuries whatsoever inflicted upon yourself and others after following the manual!




The following are steps to get a perfectly (Almost!) shaved chin in the morning! Follow them carefully in order to be properly shaved.

1. Wash your face. The dried saliva might cause a detonation when it is mixed with shaving cream!
2. Put some shaving cream on your chin and above your upper lip.
Cheat sheet: Make yourself resemble Santa minus the red suit and cap and the shaving cream should be in the proper place.
3. Pick up your razor or blade or electric shaver (recommended: Gillette)
4. Start shaving! You should go from up to down or from side ways. Go for the direction you are comfortable with!
Cheat sheet: Use one hand to hold the skin nearby the direction you’re going to shave! It helps a lot. Oh yeah, be careful with the blade!
5. Once you’re done, wash off left over shaving cream.
6. You are advised to use an after-shave as they moisturize the skin after shaving and they also make you smell nice in front of your girlfriend!
7. You are all set to go anyway with that perfectly shaved chin of yours!


Look at yourself in the mirror, aren’t you perfectly shaved now?

Shaving Facts

· It hurts to shave for the first time for some men!

· Barbers who offered shaving services in the olden times had to be very careful. If the razor slips from their hand, their customer would be gone FOREVER! It does solve the problem with complaining customers though!
· Some men don’t bother putting shaving cream, they just shave without it. Not advisable though!

By: Nur Alia
Originally for: Nik Rashid Bin Nik Zurin
Inspired by: The act of Rashid bullying Shahira! LOL!
Thanks to: Nik Shahira Binti Nik Zurin

My best friend's Maid of Honour speech...

Nik’s Maid of Honor Speech to AliaGood evening everyone, I am Nik Shahira. I am Alia’s maid of honour and today, well you know. The speech crap.Alia, Alia, Alia…. You….You amazing thrill ride! You’ve grown up so much, sweetheart. I’m so proud of you! But I’m so FURIOUS!!! How on Earth, I ask myself a THOUSAND times, could that douche bag next to you -No offense, dude- take you away from us- NO, ME!? HOW!? God, I even wished I could stab your hubby there ever since he magically swept you off your feet …but you know what? Whatever! You’re happy and that makes me wanna burst in joy every second! I couldn’t be happy for you more than I could now, baby.But GAH, ALIA!- EFFING Finally! Remember the times we sat through Deanna’s wedding with NJ, filled with the hope that someday, it would be one of us up there with a sexy guy? Gone are the lonely nights we talked until the early hours, crying over the fear that it might never be one of us up there. And now…Say goodbye to bad blind dates arranged by Carmen and relentless pestering from Joyce who was always trying to fix you up with the wrong guy. Say goodbye to scanning all those sad profiles on the Internet dating sites I gave you during my Milo withdrawal insomniac nights, looking for someone to peak your interest. And I gotta tell you, Alia, you are one helluva fish to catch. Josh over there, certainly hit the mother of all jackpots! But ah! How happy are you that you will never again have to fight with the other single girls to catch the bouquet? TEE HEE, I’M HINTING MYSELF HERE! Can you believe that you actually get to be the one tossing the bouquet this time?Well, I sure can. I always could. I knew during those awkward and naughtyintroductions at happy hour, when one of our friends invited a single hot guy and didn’t tell you. I knew when you were secretly picking out your own sexy wedding gown of your liking on all those shopping trips for the other bubbly girls who were engaged. I confess I got a little worried when you started dating Mr. Wrong. What was his name? The guy we called “OH GOD, HE’S A CHICK.” I knew there were better things in store for you. And, thankfully, you did too. HELL YEAH, YOU DID BABE!And then there was Josh. The guy we called “the hot dude we like.” I remember when you first told me he could be “the one.” I could just picture it. Joshdown on one knee, asking you to make him the happiest man in the world while you lift up your right leg and squeals, offering you that beautiful diamond ring, you in that gorgeous gown, me making this speech.It may have been many years in the making, but (groom) was certainly worth waiting for. It is so great to finally see you so happy! NOW GO HAVE SEX LADY!